Today I feel like sharing and tell you about something from my own life. As I am getting to know new lovely blogfriends on a daily basis, I also reckon that some of you have gone or are going through illness and bad times in your lifes.
3 years ago, I got very ill. My son, that has lived with me since me and my ex split up, had to move to his father and stay with him, and in the next 2 years while I was fighting to get better, I only saw him in the holidays, due to a long distance.
Every time, when I had to send him back to his father, I was standing at the airport, barely able to hold back the tears while saying goodbye. Driving home crying. Again and again. I couldn't even enjoy entirely having him with me, because I knew I soon had to say goodbye again. The pain I felt inside me, was undescribeable...
In autumn 2009, still not fully recovered, but well enough to travel, I took him on a vacation to Spain, and by then I have learnt to enjoy the moments with him, not thinking too much about that I had to separate again after. It turned out to be the best vacation ever. Long walks, lovely trips around, eating at nice restaurants, sun, sea and fun. Below are some pics from there. That was a turning point for me. I started to think positively again. Started to fight to get my life back on track.
Anyway, long story short....After summer holiday starting last year, I had recovered fully.
My life today:
He lives with me, doing very well at school, and every day coming home saying hi to his mom with a big grin on his face. He is now 15 and on his way to become a fine young man. My life is smiling to me again....I am happy.
BUT. I take nothing for granted anymore. Every night, when I go to bed, I think about the things in my life I am grateful of. I try to fully enjoy the small golden moments in everyday life, and instead of focusing on the things that could have been better, I rather try to appreciate the things that are fine....
I hope this wasn't too personal for you, and that my story in some way might inspire you or give you hope.
Look into the eyes of your loved ones, appreciate to be near them and love them, look into the mirror at least once a day and tell yourself that you are a beautiful person who deserves all good things in life (I do that!) and remember: What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger!
I wish you all a great weekend, take care, wherever you are in the world....
Lots of warm hugs and love from Ingrid. :)